i miss melbourne...sigh..its been a whiel since i wrote...but I MISS MELBOURNE....the lifestyle...the fact that there are more caucasians...i dontknow...melbourne has just become my home...singapre..yes...its technically my home..yet..somehow...people seem foreign...even good friends i hvae...be it christian or non...we dont click on a level that is as personal as with friends i had in melbourne....but yeah...mellowing and dwelling on the past isnt veri biblical and healthy...but...oh well...its just that im so missing and reminscening my uni days...it was so fun..i didnt really make the best of it...i guess my mistake..and one of my greatest flaws is..i dont seize the day...sooo..unCARPE DIEM...not sure if i spelt it correctly..but oh well...i love u melbourne!!!

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Portugal just lost to greece 2-1...wat a pathetic performance by the host nation.oh well..its been quite a while since i wrote my blog..and yet again im at my friend's house.watching soccer..talking bout girls...girls..the bane of a guy's life..and yet is also the missing piece in life's jigsaw puzzle...it always puzzles me..why my group of secondary school friends are always so...distraught and perturbed by girls...most of us..well at least the ones i mix more often..always are mystified by what girls want..and yeah...we dont seem to be able to get into a proper relationship..or ..hm..i really dont know wat to say..we soemtimes act like secondary school kids..going town to look at girls..i mean...for me..im soo past that stage...but yeah..they are still dwellnig in such things..sigh...how can it be ..that u connect so powerfully with one person...and are so crazy over that person..and when u thought feelnig are mutual..and things are progressing well...they break your heart...tv has always portrayed that guys are vile creatures.sleeping ard..breaking girls heart..but...sigh..sadly...expereince tell me...girls are the ones breaking guy's heart now...emotions..feelings...these are tools for a relationship..these are ..what are they? its so warped...as a christian...i claim God's love is enough...but in actual fact..there is a longing for sometnig..someone...the joy of been in numbing love doesnt overide the fact that the pain and ache of a separation is nonetheless excruiating...but why do pple aka my friends..want do go over all the hassle and trouble and pain just to have those emotions and feelings for someone...sigh...bane..and yet the missing puzzle...i seem warped again...Joshua Harris's I Kissed Dating Goodbye..its..so utopic i reckon...but its not impossible..oh God...help my friends and I of cos...though we may not be the gorgeous ac guys we were suppose or thought to be..im sure we are pple of more character then some of our more gorgeous contemporaries...oh Lord..Heal the Broken Hearted...yeah...and Lord thank you for the bible study we had..it was fantabulous..use me..and use the cell grp to better spred your word..grant us understanding when we are confuse.....sigh...the heart aches..the mind remembers...the body longs...the touch unforgettable....y lord? emotions are such powerful powerful 'force'...help!

Easter camp...

sigh..dont know why..all of a sudden...i miss melbourne...its like..dont know..was just reading the report of bob and jasmine..which i havent read previously..it just brings back fond memories...sigh..it was soo good in melbourne..better then singapore..definitely...most of my good friends in singapore are non-christians..they dont see my perspective..and im soo scared of been a bad testimony...which im sure i am..God help me...even my christian friends..and cell grp..its so different from in melbourne...sigh...its all rushing back..the good times..the times where i could worship God together with freedom..the time...yeah..when im so myself...with OCFERS..God..i tihank you for bringing me there..i just soo love the place..sigh..LORD..take me to the place of rest.and joy.that i had...tell me what u want me to do for my life..i love u LORD...yeah...melbourne..i will never forget you....Lord use me as ur servant...help me to understand ur purposes..and lord..grant me THAT ONE DESIRE ...pls Lord...

Friday nite....

oops..im seriously getting hooked onto this bloggie...welll i half expected to be swarm with gorgeous girls commenting on my blog..but alas..the morsel of information that i provide bout myself...i doubt wat i 'anticipated' wld happen once i start mumbling would actually self eventuate...aniwae...just got back from jansen's house..yesh..im always at his place..y? cos nyjc is opposite his hous..and i can run round the track..many pple hate running round a track..but alas..yours truly..is totally deranged..aniwae...i often wonder...how my mind works..its like..there are so many things i think about...my future...God..emotions that are caused by different circumstances...getting into medical school..so many different facets of my life are played out in my mind..its literally a rumbling..as in...these thoughts occur at the same time..and i literally feel my mind is like a box..filled with many items..and when im in my warped mood..the 'box is been shaken'..different 'items' are accentuated...haha...im sure anibodi who reads my blog wld totally be going like..' wat the heck is he talking about'...oh well...good friends call me all of a sudden ding...becos..i switch conversations of topic just as fast as how a flick on the light switch enables a dark room totally void of light to be bursting with fluorescent light...ooh well.....got so much to write...cos got so much time..haha...wonder whether its an unofficial blog rule..whereb.. u can only write a blog a day..oh well..guess mebbe i just became a blooger..therefore i have 'needs' that needs to be relieved by typing away..oh well...God bless to the world..the world needs it!

Friday..Weekends...weee!!!

Its been a pretty busy past few days...been going to work and yeah..exercising..yay!!..been running 4km...twice in fact...which is really good..feeling wat gym/exercise junkies feel.the pleasure of endorphin been released from the pituitary..hmm..its at the posterior pituitary i ermember..hmm.argh...cant even rememebr wat i study..haha..wat warpness...hmm...sigh..the lady working at the same cafe as me...hmm..aiyah...i know thsi wld sound so unchristian..but she nags too much!!!..and i soo dont wan to talk to her..shes really friendly..TOO FRIENDLY for the matter..and..yeah...it really bugs me..for her to whine to me..shes always complaining bout her life..bout how she use to work in the hospital as a medical technologist or someting to that extent..how she had better paying jobs..then she whines bout how old is she...how she didnt like the nwe job...come on man..she applied for the kitchen assistant job...and yet..arghh...the funny thing is..she always try to impose her own idaes to the boss..and trying to act smart...well..yes..she was in catering busniess..but apparently it failed..and now..shes trying to use her EXP..to help out..cld see the boss was getting really irked..but his a really patient and nice man..oh..its so relax..working there..not much fun..but its arite..to work quietly...the auntie..argh..really riks me..i guess..my patience is really tried with her..God help me...oh...sigh...just praying God gives me cahnce..and oh..by the way..listening to black eye peas now..haha..SO SHUT UP..haha..okk...ciao man...weekends...wee!

Vesak Day....Blah....mundane day yet again...

Hmm..this is my first ever posting on the internet...hmm..mebbe not...i do remember the time of opendiary..when its free at least..haha...thank God..there is another avenue to express my thoughts from the recesses of my subconciousness...blah..the wound on my right leg is killing me..i feel as though the injury is not only superficial..rather it affects my bone...blah...aniwae....just read colossians and philippians...hmm...Paul talks about boasting in the Lord..and as i walked towards this internet cafe...(yesh im at a internet cafe..my aunt's computer really sucks..thats another story)..i kinda realise...or rather..it dawn upon me..wat it really means to boast in the lord...to boast in the lord...to my one minded interpretation..to resist sin..and temptation..and after achieveing victory..to praise unashamedly...to God.....now..i realise...y 1 corithains 12 is so applicable..to renew our minds...dad always tell me..my mind is the battelefield....if we are able to control what we think...we are able to prevent ourself from been tempted..hm.m..oh well..dont know....aniwae..got to meet jansen and the rest...God bless..whoever reads this..hmm.i dont tink anione will be reading..ciao